Trust



Trust is an interesting concept.  Trust in another person not to hurt you.  Trust that they'll make you feel safe.  Trust that they'll do what they say.  Trust that they'll be who they say.  Trust that they'll let you be who you are.  Trust in yourself. 

 

 It takes a lot to put your faith in another person. You're giving them a gift, asking them to be exactly who you think they are, knowing that they probably won't be able to.  People are flexible.  We change, we make mistakes.  We're only human.  But sometimes, they can surprise you and those are the times when it makes it worth it.  Still, giving someone your trust is never easy.  It's like giving them a part of yourself and asking them not to break it.

 

Sometimes trusting yourself is even harder. For some reason, (most of us) see ourselves harsher than others do.  We see our own flaws, our mistakes.  We see every heart we broke, every lie we told, every promise or secret we didn't keep.  Sometimes that makes us doubt ourselves and the truths we hide that, deep down, we know to be right.  Because of this, we may fall short of the expectations we have for ourselves and therefore doubt even more. 

 

It makes for a hard life to not trust yourself or those around you.  Believe me, I know.  But once you do decide to take that step, to make that leap, and you know that if you put your faith in the right people that they will never let you fall even if they slip once in a while, it's a beautiful thing.  Knowing that you can trust yourself to make those decisions, to be who you want to be and not let anyone or anything hold you back, that's like giving your soul wings to grow and to fly. 

 

In my life, I have been so fortunate to have one of the best support systems a woman can ever have.  We've had our off times, sure, but when it really comes down to it, we're always in each others' corner.  Hopefully I'll be able to trust myself enough to know when another is worth letting in and trusting as well.  One can only hope.